Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Lovers and Friends part2
I also have a friend who was once a lover. We were once involved in a serious relationship but was decided we make better friends than mates. Honestly I kinda grew bored with the relationship. He over time became one of my best friends. My go to person about everything. I call him my hood love because when we were together he loved how I would cuss him out. He used to say I was the only woman he know that can cuss you out with a smile shake you to the depth of your soul then pray for you in the next breath. I still cuss him out occassionally. We have become eachothers go to person about all things the opposite sex. Recently I met a man who has me all giggles and butterflies and he met a woman who he said to me was gonna be his wife. We talk about them all the time. Well last time we talked im telling him about how excited I am about the progress of my relationship. I say to him "Freeman how are things going with Nicole" and he was like blah blah blah. I know him so I know something aint right. Hes basically was like Tee you know how I am and I do know cause hes a virgo like me. He said shes cool and shes sweet and all but he aint so sure. I asked why not afterall this is the woman who organized him a surprise birthday dinner and got all his friends together. I discovered I was an issue in their relationship. When he said she asked him for the truth behind something I posted on his facebook status and the truth behind he and I. He said he had a hard time saying and I quote "Tee is my baby and I love her if she ever needs me for anything Im gonna have her back regardless of who she is with and who I am with" I know if my man said this to me about another woman I would have a hard time understanding. It dawned on me then. He has compared every woman hes been with since me to me. I notice they dont stay around very long. He kinda gets close to em but they never get all the way in like I did. I do know im a tough act to follow in a relationship any of my ex will tell you that but I had no idea he was still holding out. We aint been together in that way in over 6 years. In my eyes the dynamic of the relationship has completely changed into a friendship. His friendship is like a staple in my life. Like I need to know I can depend on him as my friend. Im not open to goin back to a relationship. As painful as it is im gonna have to give up the friendship because I love him. Because I love him I want him to be able to move on and be open to love with another woman since im not open to love with him.
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