I was having a discussion with my twin the other day. We are both 27 and have both been married and divorced. We both said we would never get married again. Me personally I feel like if we love eachother we don't need a legal document stating that. I would love to actually wear the dress and have a ceremony I didn't do that when I got married but I don't want it to be legally binding. I would rather someone spend their life with me because he feels like I add to it and he can't be without me. Not because he has a legal document saying he has to do so.
I now realize this way of thinking is because I'm not completely healed from my divorce yet. I am over the man and I'm over the marriage and I thought that was enough. I didn't realize I had to heal from the divorce as well. By me saying I'm opposed to marriage I could be potentially making another man pay for the mistakes of my exhusband while thinking I'm completely healed. I understand all men are not the same and there are good ones out there. I know I wouldn't wanna pay for the mistakes of another woman so its not fair to make someone pay for the mistakes of my ex as well.
Now that I understand that line of thinking was dead wrong I pray that I am able to overcome my fears so that I may love and trust completely. No rush tho I am a work in progress
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