I was talking with an old friends and we got on the topic of our ex spouses. This idea came into my head. The line between love and hate is so thin that if you have enough emotion to hate someone then deep down inside somewhere you really still love that person. Hate is an emotion that grows from a love rejected. Rejected because either that love is no longer being returned or because you cant be with that person for whatever reason. I used to hate my ex husband when we first split up. I hated him for a while before we split up actually. I dont think it was meant for me to be married to him but I do think he was supposed to be the father to my boys. I now realize that I dont hate him but that I still love him. Its a different kind of love these days. I love him for giving me a gift that no one else could give me. He made me the mother to his children. I am deeply madly in love with me two little boys. How can I love them so much and not love him. Afterall he is where they came from. We are bonded for the rest of our lives whether we like it or not. I acknowledge this and embrace this feeling and the hate was removed from my heart.
Having resentment for him in my heart doesnt hurt him it was only hurting me. Thats why I had to let that go. Dont want to miss out on great opprotunities because I want to harbor old hurt and hold on the old feelings.
It was easier for me to let go of those feelings because I wanted to. I am ready to fall in love again.
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