It Kills Me

I swear I love being a Virgo woman after all we are the most desired sign in the zodiac. We do have our downside tho. We tend to over analyze things, thoughts and feelings. Also we tend to be kinda nit picky. I'm definitely guilty of those things. I'm a really inviting person. If you spend 5 minutes with me you will feel like you have known me forever. Now while you feel this way I on the other hand, well I'm checking you out because I'm not open to letting everyone in. I have been told at times I come off as cold and abrasive in situations where I really do care. A lot of times its unintentional but its as if I have to be like that to protect myself from being taken advantage of. I get taken advantage of a whole lot because I am a giving and genuine person. Virgo is the peace maker and we want everyone around us happy no matter what. So I'm trying to work on being more emotionally expressive with those I care about. This is hard for me because I don't like to be in my emotions like that. I just had a semi emotional talk with someone and I feel sick to my stomach as a result. It literally makes me physically ill to have to dig in my emotions. That's also another Virgo trait. I've read about it before but I'm just now starting to notice that I always do that. Its like my nerves get bad and I want to throw up at the thought of being emotionally vulnerable to another person. Oh well I just wanted venting