wow.....really

Today I saw briefly on the news a story about a young mother who suffocated her two small children and then pushed her car off a bridge. This woman then told authorities she couldn't save the kids and barely got out of the car herself. After further investigation it was determined she did murder her kids.
As a mother I find it very hard to understand how anyone could hurt a child especially one that comes from you. Everyone who know me knows I have 2 small beautiful little boys named Derek and Donovan. My little boys are all I have in this world and if it came down to me or them I would choose them each and every time.
I remember when I discovered I was pregnant with Donovan my marriage was a mess. I was contemplating leaving and I hadn't even gotten used to the one child I had. I didn't even tell my ex husband about the pregnancy at first. I told only my mother. I was gonna have an abortion and take the one child I had and leave. I'm so glad I confided in my mother. She shared with me her desire to abort my little brother because she thought she was to old for more kids and how he turned out to be the son she always wanted and how glad she was that she didn't do it.
After the heart to heart with my mom I finally told my ex and we agreed to try to work things out.
That was a really hard pregnancy I was sick all the time but somehow I enjoyed everyday of it. Even the days I spent in the hospital. I knew there was life growing in me and I felt honored to be given such a blessing. To this day that is the only thing I regret. I regret even contemplating ending that pregnancy.
The day Donovan was born a full 8 weeks early it was discovered I was sicker than they had initially thought. I was given the choice to save his life or mine. The same life I wanted to end 30 weeks prior I now wanted to save. I told them to do everything they could to make sure my baby lived. If he lived and contributed to society than I have serve my purpose in life.
As a mother you are supposed to choose the life of your children each and every time. I didn't blink flinch or think twice. I guess God wasn't done with me because I survived.
If I had to do it all over again I would always choose his life over mine which is why I cannot understand how this woman could hurt her babies.
Life is funny that way. There are women who would give everything to experience motherhood while others take that incredible blessing for granted.