Tell Him

Dang Lauryn Hill is talkin to me tonight. I sat down to blog about something else and started listening to Tell Him and got the inspiration for something else.
Tell him I need him tell him I love him it will be alright.

I recently got involved with a man and when I say recent I mean its not even 2 months old. Naw I cant really say its love but I can definitely see it going there. I hope it goes there. When I think about how everything went down I feel completely crazy. In just a split second he made me do so many unthinkables it makes my head spin. I met him on twitter. You do not meet potential mates on the net. That's what crazy people do. Within days he had me convinced to come see him. Now you definitely do not get on planes and go meet strangers. Only crazy people do that. So maybe I'm crazy cause I got on that plane and I went to see him.
I admit I was really skeptical and he was the sure one. I wanted to wait and see if it felt real in person. It did feel real. Was one of the realest connections I have ever felt in my life. I'm pretty sure that last encounter it felt like we were making love and not simply just having sex.
I have got to admit I am scared to death of feeling like this so fast and so early in the game. But life is short and I don't want to spend it afraid. My gut says go for it. I want to give him my heart I want to fall in love with him and whatever else come with it. So now it seems as if I'm the sure one and he's the skeptic. He has so many good reasons to feel that way. The chemistry we shared is not something only one person feels so if I felt it I'm sure he did too. If I'm scared I can only imagine how he feels. There's the age difference the long distance and I'm sure hes been hurt a time or two and there goes the room for skepticism.
Usually when I get with men who need me to make them feel secure I leave it alone cause I don't want to deal with it or go thru the extra trouble. I guess I have never care enough to even bother. Somehow I feel like he might be worth the trouble. So in two months he got my phone number, talked me into a visit, got my attention in an 'I only wanna be with him' exclusive kind of way and has me convinced to move away from my friends and family to be with him. I wonder if this is what God had in mind last year when he told me quit kissing frogs and let him send me a king? I wonder was he my last first kiss.