Happiness

November is 30 days of thankfulness month. While I have so much to be thankful for I am so thankful real love has finally found me. I get butterflies in my stomach when he says my name. I blush when he looks at me and then he laughs and says look at your cheeks and I blush even harder.
It's been many times I wanted to walk away simply because I was afraid of my feelings and afraid of being hurt, but he wouldn't let me go. I'm thankful for that.
What I'm most thankful for is all the mistakes and bad choices that led me to this point. He often says he wishes he and I had gotten together before some of those other women he dealt with. But I on the other hand am grateful we didn't. I dated some real assholes. Even married one. I'm not sure who was the worst the jerk after my divorce or the last asshole I dated. I actually got pregnant by that loser. I aborted that baby and told everyone I lost it in a wreck simply because I envisioned him in my life for years to come and I just couldn't do it.
Truth is we did date a long time ago when I was still in high school. I was about 17 then. He says he wishes we stayed together but I'm convinced there were some lessons in life I needed to learn and he as well and we wouldn't had made it back then.
We have bad days just like anyone else but even on those bad days I wouldn't want to be with anybody else.
What I am most thankful for is the life that we have created. I am so looking forward to becoming a mother again and to be able to do this with my best friend is beyond amazing. If everything goes according to plan she will be born via csection on his birthday so if you are reading this please keep us in your prayers.