Green Eyes

"my eyes are green cause I eat a lot of vegetables. It aint got nothin to do with your new friend" I recently learned one of the most important lessons in my life. Misery really love company. I've decided misery cannot have mine tho life is going pretty well. I had these 3 women who I considered friends. They knew eachother thru me and from what I understand didn't really care for eachother like that. I have watched these women form a bond over their hatred and jealousy of me. I went thru a really messy breakup with someone that played out on social media. My exboyfriend is an arrogant pompous jerk who is old enough to be someones grandfather and clubs like he's still 18. He wrote this infamous blog about how he wasn't feeling me. Honestly he wasn't feeling me makin him grow up and act his age. The messiness of it all was the most humiliating thing I've experienced to date. Why would these women who are supposed to be my friends continue a relationship with someone who did that to me. He lives out of state so its not like ya'll can hang out with him. I can't tell anyone who to be friends with but if you weren't really friends with him until after we broke up and things got messy why are you friends with him now? Shit hit the fan when I started dating someone new. One of these "friends" is telling people I made up a boyfriend in my head. For what and to impress whom? I suppose I created his facebook page, added all those friends and photoshopped him in all those pictures together right? Then this miserable person proceeds to call me a whore via subtweet on twitter of course cause she's not as big and bad as she wants people to think. My response to this was "I'm grown and unless you're fuckin me who and what I do with MY pussy is none of your concern" This is the same chick who is miserable with her babyfather. She hasn't wanted to be with him since before her now 1yr old son was even conceived. She feels stuck so yeah I see why she liked it when I was with a man who treated me like shit and got mad when I found someone who wants to treat me right. When I confronted her about it she immediately backed down saying she wasn't talkin about me smh. Not so Billy Bad Ass after all huh? One of the other chicks is a loner. No one really likes her and she will suck up, kiss ass whatever she gotta do to feel like she's in the group and that people like her. She's completely spineless. One night she sat up on twitter at 3am and had a discussion about me with my ex where he told her he was only talkin to her and the other two chicks to make me mad. She then swaps phone numbers with him and they have a 2hr conversation about me after which they both come back and tweet how enlightened they were after talking. What the entire fuck??? Someone saw this and let me know about it and yes I slayed her ass in public view. In a totally separate situation someone I considered a close friend was growing increasingly jealous of my new relationship. She even once told me to tell my man he shouldn't be with me everytime she called because he was cutting in on her time smh. Umm we're young, in love and its a new love yeah we're together a lot get over it. She picked a fight with me over something petty and insisted on falling all the way out over it. Ok cool if that's how you feel. I posted a facebook status "I asked God to show me my enemies and I lost friends" it was true and how I felt at the moment. Imagine my surprise when she inboxed me and said "I know that status was about me and let me tell you something no one is jealous of your relationship". It all makes sense now. That fight she picked was because she was indeed jealous. Naturally I'm beating myself up all these fall outs back to back. What did I do wrong? What is my role in all of this? Then it hit me. I'm embarking on a new journey with a man who is not only my lover but my bestfriend and not everyone can go with us. Just like you have to prune a flower and cut weeds and dead leaves off so it can continue to grow I had to lose certain people from mine so I can grow. Yeah its painful but its necessary. Its life and that season of my life is over.