Thursday, April 21, 2011

Weekend Love

I was chatting with someone on bbm with someone and the subject of weekend lovers came up somehow. He said weekend lovers suck cause sometimes you need attention during the week. I told him my boyfriend lives 600 miles away sometimes all we got is the weekend. We done somehow made this thing work for 8 months now. I don't know why that impresses people so much. Relationships are hard work but anything worth having is worth working for.
Its crazy cause everybody has something to say about the situation. How do you make it work? Are you guys faithful? Whats gonna happen when you move? Why cant you find someone in your city?

We make it work because this is what we want. He deals with the separation differently than I do. I have my kids to occupy my time and he doesn't have that. The idea of missing me is hard for him and he doesn't allow himself to think about it. Sometimes he doesn't give as much as I would like but he is himself I accept that. Besides I'm not clingy or needy. Whats important is I know if I need him hes gonna be there for me.
Are we faithful? Absolutely. Funny thing is when we met I was seeing someone who lived up the street from me. It wasn't serious but definitely heading there. He was gonna be an out of town fling. I broke it off with the guy who lived up the street to be with him. So I had a guy up the street, I could see whenever and I cheated. I have a man who lives 640 miles away and the thought of cheating never crosses my mind. I could but I wouldn't because I believe hes the one. Do I think he cheats on me? Not at all. I trust him. If I didn't trust him we woulda never made it this far. Besides hes been there done that and hes ready to settle down as well.
When I move we are definitely not living together at first for a lot of reasons. I love my space and so does he. I love the feeling of the newness of it all. The way he blushes when I look at him and I still smile at just the thought of him. I'm not ready to give that feeling up yet. Relationships get old fast once you start playing house. I remember going to see him and spending 12hours on planes and in airports being pissed off when I finally landed and looking at him and instantly getting over it. He has that affect on me. When I look at him or hear his voice everything is ok.
True I could find someone in my city and closer to my age but I don't want to. I want him. I think hes the one. I do turn down men in my city everyday. There is someone who has been after me and says "don't cheat yourself treat yourself" cheating myself would be cheating on him. That's why its so easy to say naw I'm good.

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